I wonder if that would work for us. I mean--we're obviously not the same. [He doesn't want to offend her by implying that, but still.] But the medication we take, it builds synapses back in our brains...focusing could hone that, in a relapse.
[She's not saying it's outside the realm of possibilities, but at the same time she doesn't know much about zombies.]
Maybe if you practice it in combination with the medicine it'll make it easier to stay in control. It's just a matter of ... drowning out the hunger with something stronger.
Maybe--it really really isn't safe. And if something happened, if I slipped up, the administration might send me home--I can't afford that. I'm...I'm not close to my incentive yet.
Is there anything the representatives could do to make sure it doesn't?
[She can understand the idea of not wanting to be in any more debt than he had to be, but at the same time ...]
They have all kinds of medicine and magic. I get that you might not want to rely on them for everything, but I can't imagine that they want some kind of undead outbreak all over Eudio either.
Maybe? But--I just...it just seems like a big risk.
[He worries at his pants for moment, then decides to pick up his sketch book, flicking through the pages.]
I don't want to rely on them. I want to do this without them, as much as I can. I feel like using them too much is cheating. And--given what happened back home, trusting governments never works out that well.
[No one had ever offered to sketch her before. That's cool and she may be slightly flattered.]
And because I know what it's like to lose control and not be able to stop myself from hurting someone. If there's a way that I can help you not go through that again? I want to at least try.
[Kieren smiles, and pulls out a pencil, slowly starting to work, looking from his paper to her face. It's a natural movement, not trying to make her feel uncomfortable.]
I really appreciate it. Some people just don't understand--I don't blame them, but it's hard, sometimes, trying to explain the fear to people who have never had to worry about something inside of them, like that.
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Not that I want to test it out, though.
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[She's not saying it's outside the realm of possibilities, but at the same time she doesn't know much about zombies.]
Maybe if you practice it in combination with the medicine it'll make it easier to stay in control. It's just a matter of ... drowning out the hunger with something stronger.
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[It isn't for him; he would care less if it was.]
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[She can understand the idea of not wanting to be in any more debt than he had to be, but at the same time ...]
They have all kinds of medicine and magic. I get that you might not want to rely on them for everything, but I can't imagine that they want some kind of undead outbreak all over Eudio either.
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[He worries at his pants for moment, then decides to pick up his sketch book, flicking through the pages.]
I don't want to rely on them. I want to do this without them, as much as I can. I feel like using them too much is cheating. And--given what happened back home, trusting governments never works out that well.
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[And it really is fair enough. She was just trying to make sure all their bases are covered.]
Well, we can try it and see if we can figure it out. But it may involve digging into those feelings that you feel when you're about to lose control.
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[Kieren looks over at her, smiling softly.]
Do you--is it okay if I sketch you? I won't show anyone, unless you agree to it, I promise.
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[No one had ever offered to sketch her before. That's cool and she may be slightly flattered.]
And because I know what it's like to lose control and not be able to stop myself from hurting someone. If there's a way that I can help you not go through that again? I want to at least try.
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I really appreciate it. Some people just don't understand--I don't blame them, but it's hard, sometimes, trying to explain the fear to people who have never had to worry about something inside of them, like that.